I live to be alive. The ultimate feeling of life is to feast, to drink, to have relationships, to discover both the external and internal worlds. I live so I can love. I hurt so I can love again. I wake up so I can fill my day and once my body is tired I rest my head to prepare for the next.
I wake because I was given a gift. I wake because I have the possibility to wake.
I wake because I believe there will come a day where life will be peace, where all heartbeats will be free, where the world will live on love.
So after one month of traveling I started seeing something wrong with my dogs. What it was, was never something I would have expected.
Depression. Previously I knew they reacted to there environments but didn’t think it would have gone this bad. The whole story of dogs just being ok with you being there is not entirely true. You being there and happy makes it easier for them to adapt but they have their own feelings.
I ended my plan very early, we left on a 12 month walk through the mountains and well month one was great and then we started to really move. Each night in a different house. Different families and people. This slowly got too much. Altair (my fragile boy) decided this is not making him happy and well being as close as I am to my dogs. I felt what he was going through.
We took a 200€ emergency train ride back to family in Germany and after 2 days they were happy again. I went to the vet to make sure they have no physical problems or health issues. I was told that my dogs were some of the best kept and healthiest they have seen coming in.
Getting home I wanted to get to the bottom of what the cause of this depression.
Well my intellect of a friend, Google. Said there are many things that cause depression in dogs. Some are; loss of a family member(We have lost our whole family, left them all behind.), change in environment(only travelling every day so this is possible), change in food(it was impossible to find my food here and took 6 months before I go it again.), not having a place or consistency. I stopped here. It was obviously depression, just to have one of these is a possible cause for depression. We have them all. My poor dogs. So we needed to cancel all the plans we made and needed to start a new one.
We apologized to all the people banking on us doing what we set out to do but for my dogs they all understood.
Now that we have a home and a car they have come right. It was hard but we are still here in the mountains and still living as far from the society system as possible.
We are living free. It brings its problems but also its gifts.