The shadows behind the photos

I have gotten a lot of negative feedback from people over the last 12 months, as I ask for support in the form of sponsorships I get told that I am not able to ask for any support due to the fact that I am living the dream everyone else wishes to live. Well I can promise it’s not all just beautiful landscapes and pretty pictures. 

I have given up my house for a tent,

I have given up my car for a pair of hiking shoes,

I have given up my bed for a blanket on the floor, 

I have given up my family and friends for a community that doesn’t understand me,

I have given up breakfast and lunch many days so I can afford to take my dogs out and have fun,

I have given everything up to live my life,

I made the choice to reach for my dream and I live it.

Is it always easy? No

Can I manage to survive here? I don’t know.

Do I struggle to put food on my plate? Yes.

Do my dogs ever go hungry? No. 

Do they ever stay at home? No. 

Would I change my life? No. 

If I am asking for support, it’s not because I am looking for an easy way out, it’s not because I want you to feel sorry for me. It is purely because I am not able to carry on posting those beautiful photos, it is because I can’t give my dogs the most amazing experiences 

I ask for help because everything I do here I do it to help and change the world for dogs. And I don’t ask them to pay me for that. 


News

We have been struggling lately, we bought a camper about 10 months ago and it has been impossible to have it registered here in Italy, it has drained our money and has stopped us from travelling, I am hoping we manage to fix the problems and push on but it is not easy. 

We did manage to get to Croatia for a few days. It wasn’t really a holiday as we were there for training but the dogs had Fun so I guess it counts. Well here are some pics

1 year and going strong

So it has officially been 1 year that my dogs and I have been travelling. Well I can tell you that it definitely didn’t go the way we planned but if has been perfect, we have had the most amazing times, met the most amazing people and seen the most amazing places. I am thankful for the people who have helped us with our travel and with our necessities. We are not done yet. Unfortunately travelling will still be done on an extremely low budget, but will be following the road that the wind guides us along. I stand here 12 months from the person I was, I can’t believe that that was me. Who I have become and what I have had to do has left me in a state of disbelief. From here we go forward. 

Pointless. A depressing look at life.

Lately i have been thinking a lot about a very depressing topic, the point of life.
I am writing this hoping it brings some clarity to me and i can find a solution.

I am a free spirit. The wind takes me to where i need to go. I look to settle but there has been nothing anywhere i go that offers me a chance to do so. What does one do? I feel i am watching life pass me by as i live each day just trying to survive. Yes my life is very different from most but, is it really? Maybe my problem is this.. maybe i am looking for too much, expecting too much. Maybe i should just not worry about my future and worry about today and tomorrow and leave everything else to the wind. Let the wind guide me to the places i need to go. 

There is no life for me in the office environment. This makes it very difficult for a youngster to try start a new life. Everything these days has become unrealistically expensive and this is resulting in a huge increase in the depression within the youth. I can see it in me, and i have been told many times that my strength and ability to rise out of the ashes is inspirational. But this inspiration doesn’t pay for food. 
What i do has no value to anyone. As soon as i ask for some sort of payment, my work is dumped in the trash. Why? Why do i have this dark cloud that holds me back from achieving anything. As soon as something goes right, everything else goes wrong. Is it just me who is getting tired of playing these games? I hope it is because if it isn’t i feel sorry for those who experience what i do. I wish not this type of struggle upon anyone. 

I have been trying to get cheep land and basic structures in the mountains. Not to serve my selfish greed, but to help people who are lost like i am. Maybe this is the problem. I am looking for a place to help those who are like me before i look for a place who can help me. But the place i wish to set up and run doesn’t help me the same way it helps others. Getting the place, having something fixed and strong is what i need. This floating around is depressing. I need a place to land and sink my roots. I look back on my life and i have noticed that i have always just floated around, like the wind. Everyone knows i exist but no one notices whether i am there or not. My “friends” at school used to come and go frequently, opportunities came and went just as frequently. Nothing ever came of anything i have ever done in my life. Maybe its because i was weak. Maybe i gave up to easily. I don’t thing this is the case, as if it were then why am i still here and not back to my comfort zone?

I feel i have a purpose. My purpose is to help all those who i can. And in away i have managed that. I gave a life an opportunity to change and gave it the equipment to make that change and it was successful. Maybe that is it. Maybe like the trees told me, just stop running and trust in us. Maybe this is what i need to do. Trust that i will settle when i find my place. Part of me agrees and part doesn’t. I am here, i didn’t come here to do nothing, so what did i come here for? 

I do believe the wind and trees guide me to where i need to be. For me to be where i am would be impossible if it didn’t work like this. But if it does work like this then why is everything so hard? Do i have to struggle even more then i am already?
I’ll tell you what i am going to do. Take a deep breath in… and exhale all expectations of success and ease. I am going to breath in the life that is here and as i exhale i prepare to just make the most of what i have.
I am not a stupid person and many this makes life more difficult, but damn i feel like there is no hope in this world. 

Importance of travel. 

So we all know the saying “travel makes you wise.”

Well why is this? 

I feel it is for a few reasons. The first is that it exposes you to many different cultures and many different traditions and mindsets. This is great for the main reason, you can select what you like and work to avoid what you don’t like. You colour in your likes and dislikes. 

For instance i love Germany for its care and interest in its people, they look after their people. I don’t like it as the people don’t interact with each other easily, they are scared and cold. I love italy as they are passionate and full of life, But the government and the church is killing the people and the earth that they live on.  Now before i experienced either, i loved italy and hated germany. Now i have a colourful reasoning to it. 

The second is your knowledge grows hugely. You meet people that know all sorts of strange things. Travel makes you interested and in return makes you interesting. I have learnt secrets of Sheppards and the ways of the mountains. I also learnt a lot about who i am and who i wish to be.

The third and final thing i will talk about is the confidence it gives you. There is no possibility to fear life when you travel. You need to work through all situations no matter how great your fear is. 

I will add that to do this all alone is key to the effectiveness but any travel is good travel. 

I recently wrote that without travel there is no purpose in life. I will stand by this till someone can give me a better reason.

I don’t stand up to lots I stand for one. Peace. 

So looking at Facebook this morning, sticking my nose once again. I sense fear. So i go look, wolves. I go yay and the town goes blood thirsty. Wolves are seen as the devil, coming in the night and killing. This is not the case unfortunately. 

Here is the problem explained by a very wise friend of mine. We will call this friend “Tree”. 

There is a greater reason to the problem. This reason makes our fear one of self. The people of the valley hunt a lot. They kill many animals, this leaving the ecosystem very unbalanced. We are having problems solving this imbalance. This is how the wolves are solving their imbalance. There is no food left for them in their habitats. We have taken it. They hungry they come and look for food. 

So this is not an act of greed on the wolves behalf, it’s an act of greed on our side. An act that needs to be let go. 

Now this is how we solve this. The wolves are not to blame. It’s the hunters that are to blame for the depleted food source for the wolves. And the hunters are only hunting because we buy their meat. Now I don’t say stop hunting, this would solve the problem but I realize that there is no hope at this happening. So this is my proposal. Hunters should pay an organization per kg of animal they kill. This money should go to breeding programs and compensation for livestock damage. This way we put a balance in the system. I can promise you that humans hunt more animals then the wolves come to our farms for. 

This is the only way we will have peaceful farmers, still do the pointless sport of hunting, and have wolves that keep our mountains alive.