War between one

A world living in fear is a world living under the control of evil.The Buddhists believe that when one is confronted with evil the only way to defeat it is to give them love and kindness as this evil was developed on hate, anger, fear and blame. 

To believe in evil is to live in fear. I don’t believe in evil, I believe in light and dark. 
A state of darkness where one sees no future, you care not for yourself or others. Not being able to see. Not having hope. 

One becomes lost. 
Stephen hawking once said that “As long as there is life, there is hope.”
To the families that have lost, suffered and will suffer, I have you in my thoughts and prayers.
To those who wish to do harm. 

I am sorry. I am sorry for not seeing you as I see myself. I am sorry I didn’t think of your beliefs as equal to mine. I am sorry I didn’t include you in my life, like I did others. I am sorry I didn’t give you the light when you asked and needed it. I am sorry on behalf of us, the separated. 
You see I am weak, I let the stories of the past, the stories of others, and the stories of what if, control my belief. 

I am not as perfect as you may think. 

I am human, find it in you to forgive me and let’s live together in this world. It was made so we can live here in peace. 
We are one world, we are one species, we will all die if we don’t start living like one.

Pointless. A depressing look at life.

Lately i have been thinking a lot about a very depressing topic, the point of life.
I am writing this hoping it brings some clarity to me and i can find a solution.

I am a free spirit. The wind takes me to where i need to go. I look to settle but there has been nothing anywhere i go that offers me a chance to do so. What does one do? I feel i am watching life pass me by as i live each day just trying to survive. Yes my life is very different from most but, is it really? Maybe my problem is this.. maybe i am looking for too much, expecting too much. Maybe i should just not worry about my future and worry about today and tomorrow and leave everything else to the wind. Let the wind guide me to the places i need to go. 

There is no life for me in the office environment. This makes it very difficult for a youngster to try start a new life. Everything these days has become unrealistically expensive and this is resulting in a huge increase in the depression within the youth. I can see it in me, and i have been told many times that my strength and ability to rise out of the ashes is inspirational. But this inspiration doesn’t pay for food. 
What i do has no value to anyone. As soon as i ask for some sort of payment, my work is dumped in the trash. Why? Why do i have this dark cloud that holds me back from achieving anything. As soon as something goes right, everything else goes wrong. Is it just me who is getting tired of playing these games? I hope it is because if it isn’t i feel sorry for those who experience what i do. I wish not this type of struggle upon anyone. 

I have been trying to get cheep land and basic structures in the mountains. Not to serve my selfish greed, but to help people who are lost like i am. Maybe this is the problem. I am looking for a place to help those who are like me before i look for a place who can help me. But the place i wish to set up and run doesn’t help me the same way it helps others. Getting the place, having something fixed and strong is what i need. This floating around is depressing. I need a place to land and sink my roots. I look back on my life and i have noticed that i have always just floated around, like the wind. Everyone knows i exist but no one notices whether i am there or not. My “friends” at school used to come and go frequently, opportunities came and went just as frequently. Nothing ever came of anything i have ever done in my life. Maybe its because i was weak. Maybe i gave up to easily. I don’t thing this is the case, as if it were then why am i still here and not back to my comfort zone?

I feel i have a purpose. My purpose is to help all those who i can. And in away i have managed that. I gave a life an opportunity to change and gave it the equipment to make that change and it was successful. Maybe that is it. Maybe like the trees told me, just stop running and trust in us. Maybe this is what i need to do. Trust that i will settle when i find my place. Part of me agrees and part doesn’t. I am here, i didn’t come here to do nothing, so what did i come here for? 

I do believe the wind and trees guide me to where i need to be. For me to be where i am would be impossible if it didn’t work like this. But if it does work like this then why is everything so hard? Do i have to struggle even more then i am already?
I’ll tell you what i am going to do. Take a deep breath in… and exhale all expectations of success and ease. I am going to breath in the life that is here and as i exhale i prepare to just make the most of what i have.
I am not a stupid person and many this makes life more difficult, but damn i feel like there is no hope in this world. 

I don’t stand up to lots I stand for one. Peace. 

So looking at Facebook this morning, sticking my nose once again. I sense fear. So i go look, wolves. I go yay and the town goes blood thirsty. Wolves are seen as the devil, coming in the night and killing. This is not the case unfortunately. 

Here is the problem explained by a very wise friend of mine. We will call this friend “Tree”. 

There is a greater reason to the problem. This reason makes our fear one of self. The people of the valley hunt a lot. They kill many animals, this leaving the ecosystem very unbalanced. We are having problems solving this imbalance. This is how the wolves are solving their imbalance. There is no food left for them in their habitats. We have taken it. They hungry they come and look for food. 

So this is not an act of greed on the wolves behalf, it’s an act of greed on our side. An act that needs to be let go. 

Now this is how we solve this. The wolves are not to blame. It’s the hunters that are to blame for the depleted food source for the wolves. And the hunters are only hunting because we buy their meat. Now I don’t say stop hunting, this would solve the problem but I realize that there is no hope at this happening. So this is my proposal. Hunters should pay an organization per kg of animal they kill. This money should go to breeding programs and compensation for livestock damage. This way we put a balance in the system. I can promise you that humans hunt more animals then the wolves come to our farms for. 

This is the only way we will have peaceful farmers, still do the pointless sport of hunting, and have wolves that keep our mountains alive.

Been thinking 

With regards to farming animals for meat. 

Why did we ever start killing them? Time kills everything and in the most peaceful way possible, if we would look after the animals and care for them. Let them live a full life in a good environment we would still have meat at the end. Death is a natural event, we make is come sooner then it should because we are greedy. 

I think farms should change to this way of life. Animals are only eaten when they die of old age. This also ensures that they are treated the best way possible. And sorry but your steak doesn’t need to be butter soft. 

When is it ok

Today as usual I stick my nose in business I don’t need to. But I found a post on Facebook that was about a dog looking for a new home. This is what I think about this. 

We have rescue centers, they are flooded with dogs, they have dogs from all sorts of backgrounds. But most of them are because no one wants them and they get dropped off at the centers. This is not what a rescue center is there for. These places are for dogs that need rescuing and not an easy way out for a fed up owner. 

Here is my view on this giving dogs up.

And please feel free to disagree with me and you can even publicly shame me to all like minded people out there. If you can’t see the logic in my point then I don’t want you or like minded people to be following us. 

So let’s start.

Before you get a animal. Research the type of animal, what does it need to survive and be happy. Then research the specific breed and their unique behaviors and requirements. After that please realize that they are with you for (x) amount of years and they are your responsibility till the day they die. And no killing them is not an option 

Next there are rescue centers for all types of animals. Animals that have needed to be rescued from there past(Not give up). If this is not an option then please there are regulations on breeding of all animals and by supporting a registered breeder you are supporting the rules that are set by a governing body.

So you found your breeder, great(this point doesn’t really apply to rescue centers)

First important thing to look at. 

Time with mom. How long are the puppies kept with the mom and dad? A minimum of 8 weeks is necessary for basic discipline and manners that the parents teach. I recommend 12weeks old as the best time to get that puppy.

Second thing that is a huge no no. Don’t get 2 puppies from the same litter. You asking for trouble and this is why. 

They were born together, they were raised together and they were taken away from their family together. This creates a bond that you won’t split easily. They will look to each other to play and for entertainment. “Great, I want them to play with each other” no you don’t. They will be difficult to train. 

This leads to the next thing. Something that many people get wrong and I get asked often. “When do we start training our puppy?” 

Training starts with the mom and dad and as soon as puppy comes home with you, training begins. 

Sit, down, learning to go to the toilet on command, not being protective over food, and crate training(posted on how to crate train earlier) but the most important training is to play, you want your dog to play with you like there is nothing better in the world. 

Then discipline is important. They cute and small and they don’t cause damage but keep in mind that cute face might get to 40kgs. Rule of thumb, accept anything you want out of a big dog. 

Now. Dogs grow a bond to their new family. One that they will die for. If you not willing to do the same then don’t get the dog. 

A dog is a child that you didn’t give birth to. The difference is the dog will love you unconditionally till the very end. They will be by your side every step of the difficulties in life and you better be there for them the same.

If you don’t leave you children behind then you don’t leave your dog. 

This results in a huge difference in the connection between man and animal. From here we put everything in balance slowly. We see animals and more then objects, we act in ways that is best for them. 

We establish peace on earth with one simple action. If you not ready for this then you need to put the idea of having an animal on hold. 

This goes for all animals that we make reliant on us for their survival. 

Treat this world and everything on it like it’s the only one we have.

Depression in dogs

So after one month of traveling I started seeing something wrong with my dogs. What it was, was never something I would have expected. 

Depression. Previously I knew they reacted to there environments but didn’t think it would have gone this bad. The whole story of dogs just being ok with you being there is not entirely true. You being there and happy makes it easier for them to adapt but they have their own feelings. 

I ended my plan very early, we left on a 12 month walk through the mountains and well month one was great and then we started to really move. Each night in a different house. Different families and people. This slowly got too much. Altair (my fragile boy) decided this is not making him happy and well being as close as I am to my dogs. I felt what he was going through. 

We took a 200€ emergency train ride back to family in Germany and after 2 days they were happy again. I went to the vet to make sure they have no physical problems or health issues. I was told that my dogs were some of the best kept and healthiest they have seen coming in. 

Getting home I wanted to get to the bottom of what the cause of this depression. 

Well my intellect of a friend, Google. Said there are many things that cause depression in dogs. Some are; loss of a family member(We have lost our whole family, left them all behind.), change in environment(only travelling every day so this is possible), change in food(it was impossible to find my food here and took 6 months before I go it again.), not having a place or consistency. I stopped here. It was obviously depression, just to have one of these is a possible cause for depression. We have them all. My poor dogs. So we needed to cancel all the plans we made and needed to start a new one. 

We apologized to all the people banking on us doing what we set out to do but for my dogs they all understood. 

Now that we have a home and a car they have come right. It was hard but we are still here in the mountains and still living as far from the society system as possible. 

We are living free. It brings its problems but also its gifts.